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| "Woman Before a Mirror" by Frederick Carl Frieseke |
January 14, 1902: 'Am working hard on a picture and think it will come out pretty well... It's so hard to paint anything good - something that has artistic merit and is solid and well drawn and good color. It's maddening knowing what you want to do and not being able to do it. Perhaps I may some day. Who knows? Anyway, I get a little nearer all the time.'
January 20, 1902: 'Well, I finished my picture... I think it is pretty successful. Am sure it's better than last year's but can't hope for the same success to be repeated. It will probably be some years before other important steps will take place in my progress and it means so much hard plug and worry and disappointment that I lose courage when I think of it. This week I am doing nothing. Have no model.'
February 4, 1902: 'Things haven't been going well with me lately. Last week I destroyed my picture that I had been working five weeks on and it was the best one I had done in - only - just - because I couldn't get it to suit me quite. I lost my head and scraped the whole thing out. Have already started another of the same subject though and I hope to make it better than the last. If only I had someone to watch me and make me stop when I should I might paint much better things. I want you to come and watch me dear... I must hustle pretty hard or I won't have anything of importance for the Salon.'
February 18, 1902: 'I do so want to be a good painter and it's so beastly hard to do anything good. I'm most discouraged. One gets a thing done and is most pleased with it - for about a day - then you can't stand the sight of it any more. I just long for the time when I shall do something that I shall continue to like.'"
To be continued
(Excerpts from "Frederick Carl Frieseke: A Biography by Nicholas Kilmer" in Frederick Carl Frieseke: The Evolution of an American Impressionist"published on the occasion of an exhibition of Frieseke's work.)






